14 weeks, 2 days

This is another one of those in betweener weeks.  Not much new to share unfortunately.  I swear this pregnancy is one of those “hurry and wait” situations.  There is so much time when there is nothing going on.  No appointments, no symptoms, no movement, no sleep!  And apparently no sleep makes me more of a cranky bitch than I already am.  It’s hard to believe but J has literally said to me he hopes I start getting some good sleep.  And the crankiness isn’t even aimed at him!

I told a couple of my closest friends last weekend.  Which was good, and awkward.  I really hate telling people – I mean, I love them knowing, but I just don’t know what to say after I tell them I’m pregnant and there’s that beat where they’re processing it.  Or how to work it into a conversation.  I also told my boss and the senior associate at work.  There’s something interesting about the shock that comes after the statement.  No one seems to have guessed.  Part of me loves that, the fact that no one had a clue.  Part of me feels like that makes the whole thing surreal.  I mean, I get it, I don’t necessarily “look pregnant.”  I’m not really showing. And aside from the fact I’m the sober sister at dinner not much has changed.  But I have this fear that now that people know things are going to go wrong.  And most days I don’t really “feel pregnant” so having people be so surprised sometimes makes me second guess myself. 

Total weight gain/loss: +2

Next Appointment: Tuesday, April 26
Maternity clothes? Not yet.  Sticking it out with the bella band.
Stretch marks: nada.
Sleep: Back to waking up all night throughout the night.  Last week was a tease.
Best moment this week: Having the Senior Associate hug me when she found out.  I was not expecting a positive reaction from her at all.
Movement: Only my own.
Food cravings: Nothing

Food aversions: Nothing
Gender: Tell you in October!
Belly Button in or out: in
What I miss: My Friday night glasses of wine.  Being able to run a 10 minute mile without huffing and puffing.

What I am looking forward to: Telling some of my besties this weekend!

Contractions: Yee gods I hope not!
Milestones:
- Telling my boss and superiors at work.